So, dad has passed away. And my siblings and i didn't maanaged to even see him for the last time. Didnt went school for that week. hardly any sleep as well. went up to school the following week and can barely catch up since i know nothing. Thought that my clique will have go out to study because they said so when they came to my dad's funeral. and then said no feel for studying outside. Thanks for the disappointment when i have an exam coming, i know shit, and no one's telling me anything that i've missed out. Thanks a lot for asking me if i'm free on friday then, to study, like i'm begging them to study. Not about dignity, but when joanne's grandma passed away that time. whatever cher said , that it is important, even the most smallest point, i make it a note to write everything down, so when she come back, she wont be confuse, she wont be lost, and she can keep up with us. Apparently, thinking so deeply for anyone, doesn't mean that they will back for you. Thanks! really! And then, family like brother and mum are giving me problem as well. thanks, like really, am i in fault? i seriously doubt so. I'm not in a good mood either, i didn't throw my temper on anyone, thanks everyone for throwing temper at me. last but not least, at least, i thought, THOUGHT that, i have peiying to ask my doubts at. Those questions that i didn't know how to do, at least she's there for me to go to. nope. i'm sorry, i'm so angry at the tone of hers when she said," you never say which company how i know which one" wow, great! When! i've told her the year of the paper question 1. she said she go search for the paper so i told her i eat first. when i went back to doing, i still can't clear my doubts so i ask her. is it not common sense when i asked her something about the question and it's really obvious that it's the question that i just asked her about. even when i didn't tell her about the company name, and she find out herself then she came telling me that how she know which one. wtf. like seriously. I'm more than annoyed that everyone at my side has to be so fuck up. and here she came, too. even more fuck up. really feel like going face to face with her and asking her what fault did i do. and i even asked sherlyn, without the msg that i approached her after that for being such an ass. Did i do wrong? did i fucking do wrong? SHERLYN SAID NO! i hate getting malign. another thing. she said hao ren mei hao bao! wtf. so since i know you, i know you need to see the doctors every now and then , that your parents get money from you, and that you dont have much money, so whenever i can, i will treat you. Not asking anything back from you, not because i dont need that money, but because you are my friend, i'm damn that willing tohelp any friend who are in need! forgive me for doing this. i'm sorry that i'm too stupid to treat anyone that good. and when you told me that you and your boy quarrelled because he did this and that, im sorry that when im angry the other time, i msg him not to treat you badly. told you not to stay with him, told you about my own experience, hoping everything will work out well for you, and to be there for everyone who needs me. well, they do need me. but i can't need them. wow! this few weeks are too fuck up!

Doesnt mean that i've changed for the better, my temper will definetly turn good. it is better compared to last time, that doesnt mean i still dont have my temper. Too many things that i'm angry about and have to keep them to myself. who will understand?! no one! they won't understand, cause they know nothing!