I know i haven't been blogging for sometime. Things hasn't been good for my family especially dad went into the hospital and stay again, which only has a few days difference since he last came out of the hospital. The evening when sis told me that dad might not be able to pass tonight and that mum's crying, it was really shocking, and when mum called me to go down, bro say he wanted to go. So there's only me alone in the house helping mum send her yakult and waiting for a customer to get their pineapple tarts, which kept me worried sick. Can't stop crying on that day either. When i finally get there, i was shocked to find so many relatives and friends there. Which make things worse because it really seems like he's dying any moment. And once mama saw me, she told me not to cry, and i just can't stop. Was a little alright after that, and went to eat with sherlyn. stayed there over night with mum, sleeping a little whenever we can. but mum can't really sleep. she still can't really sleep much these few days. She went to the hospital every single day, sleeping for like only 4-5 hours each day, not counting the first few days when she barely sleep cause she can't as she's too worried. Now dad has his leg cut off, bacteria in his stomach which keep hurting him really badly that he knocked against the side kerb of the bed three times before mum saw him doing that. Too pain already. And i even dreamt of him passed away twice. One of them which he has passed away, and there was a scene where sherlyn and i was sitting somewhere with a table and he came to visit us. He look really healthy and younger and he don't look like he's in pain at all. and when i asked him, he said he don't feel any pain. What's those dreams supposed to mean? Anyway, school's as normal. But i didn't get enough sleep, and have to sleep in the bus everyday i go to school. T.T Enough of everything. Let's wish that i can settled my driving license after ITE, and that i can get into poly, and also, dad could recover fast and .. I'm not sure what i could say about this. because things isn't going easy for now and we aren't sure when things will be back to normal cause it seems impossible already at all.