Some will have thought, why do i have so many friends in my friends list and phone but i always look like i have no friends because i seldom pick up my phone and keep using them. First reason, Simple. i was lazy and i'm still and. Secondly, there's no reason to chat to people in facebook because most of them who initiate the conversation are guys, and they're always trying to hit on me, i'm not pretty and what's worst, i have no confidence. Even if there are guys who might seem average or worst. I'm not good either. Complexion and fats and skins are things that are poison to me. Hair seems to be ok right now, but during those past few years, they're not. Spectacles ain't a problem anymore because i can wear contact lens. But i'm not someone who's willing to dress up just to impress guys and friends. If i really put on make up and wear something really nice. It's either because it's a miracle that there's some clothing out there that can make me look better without showing my belly. or someone who i like, or! i wear it for myself. I don't like being fake and i totally detest the idea of dressing up just to impress some guys whom i'm not interested in. I am a person who laugh because something is funny, smile because i can, say something that i can. So when there're things that aren't that polite, i don't say them. The reason why old friends said that i've changed to be someone who's quiet, don't talk much. Apparently, not only in their eyes but mine as well, i'm not that fun and steady anymore. Although i wish that i can be bubbly again, part of me is thankful that i've grown up a little and know that it's not right to say things that are hurtful. Thirdly, i have no intention of making many new friends because nowadays people aren't real anymore. What's worse is those guys trying to hit on me, when they are ugly. yes, you can scold me for that, i will have karma for that. but it's true. I'd rather be honest, yes? look, there's even someone as annoying as hell when i purposely do not want to reply him simply because he has a girlfriend. the first question he asked was can he know me. I told him that if his gf dont mind, i won't either. I'm not that of a bitch who broke up other people's relationship. He didn't reply till a month later. and keep wanting to get my number, asking me to meet him and such. and he happened to be my friend's ex boyfriend's ex friend. So we agreed to meet up one day with my other friends as well because my communication skill has failed me and i have no wish to meet someone whom i'm not close with. My friends even imitate him in front of me by doing what he did in a picture and sent me. He keep asking me SOOOO many times if he's ugly and such, at first, i have no means of hurting him, so i told him i didn't view his profile so i have no idea how he look like, he send me two retarded photo. One of them is that. yes, he's making himself a joke. It's still bearable when he even send me those photos, not to mention that he keep asking me those questions again. but the fact that i have school tml, even told him, and there's no mrt anymore, he's fucking late and he let me and my friends wait for him, the fuck. Never mind that, but he's late the second time as well, when i told him not to come, and said that he's at a blk somewhere which apparently, doesn't exist to my friend who work in a block just a number difference away. that's the second fuck up he did. what was worst is that he keep complaining and saying about his girlfriend and what she did and he wanted to break up with her and such. so after the second meet up, i told him what i think. That if i'm his girlfriend i'd probably slap him hard in the face and such. i said mean things, and even told him since he like the way that i'm honest and straightforward i am going to be. I thought that i have no rights to do that at first since i'm a no one. But he really needs to wake up. and the next thing i saw, was his girlfriend post videos and such and even post on his wall saying she love him. but no, i'm not going to be someone who's so bitchy and tell his girlfriend such things. Later become my fault, yes?
