How? This person, 'A' is kind of engaged. But i still like him. Even if his engagement is not real one, but i guess he still love her, even though he said that he can lived by himself, he attracts me, First was his humour, second was how he took his job seriously, how he plan, having his own target and stuff. Thirdly was, he was not bad looking. and he has a car. It's wasn't really about his car though, what really attracts me was the first two reason i stated down earlier. He really makes me crazy. :/ The worse thing was, he's a tattoo artist (I find it totally cool) , but my mum and grandma are those who hate people with tattoos, you know, those people who are traditional.

Next , was this person, karen's friend. of course, i wasn't attracted to him at first. know him only after i knew 'A', we hang out together, to pasir ris beach. But i was too tired on that day. slept over 7 hrs for the past three days. He told me he keep looking at me and asked if i noticed. I didn't. Just right after he got off the car, he msg-ed karen. He's not someone who's looking, but someone who's really warm hearted. straight forward, honest, took care of me, send me home these past few nights even when he has to walk home or take cab home, don't mind about my past. of course, to me, i really need someone who won't get bothered about my past. and one more thing, he don't care if i put make up or not, cause he prefer people who don't , i didn't put any for the past few nights, except for bb cream because my dark circles really cannot make it. and he don't even mind, and still msged me his stuff, even told him a few negative things about me and he told me he like me even more. of course, it can just be sweet talking, he still hang out with his ex even though he told me that he dont like her anymore. but the thing was, i have no confidence, i'm afraid of myself, i need someone who will open the door of my heart before i can truly accept that person, i told him not now, he say he know, twice. But what am i supposed to do. Not to be a bastard, but i always prefer someone who's good looking, but then he's someone who can truly back me up in my life. To have someone who love you, or to have someone you love. It's the second choice for me, i just can't make up my mind., there's too many fake people out there.