hehehe, have been smiling since yst! hahaha! anyway, shall update about friday till today yeah? met sep at bugis at 11 plus, shop for my stuff before we have our lunch tgt and went to get my tattoo!get eddy's shirt as well!! hehe! ^^ the picture of the tattoo isn't clear though :/ so i'm not going to post it here. heh! shall only look at it for my own satisfaction ! haha! am i crazy or what? it took 2 hours to get that tattoo done as it's a little too big, about palm size. you have to bear the whole procedure, and i didnt want to stop halfway because i want to get it over with, not to go to the toilet and come back feeling not wanting to continue doing it. and you have to tolerate the pain, cause there are times when he "draw", it was a little unbearable, but! what's the most untolerable aren't those that are done on the bone! but! the white shading part, it was the last part, and the most unbearable of all! im so not going to do any more white one! and no, i'm not going to do any more tattoo, because i do not want to look like a tattoo freak, and i just wanted one that i could live throughout my life. just one nice one! Sep accompany me throughout the whole morning till 5 plus before we took cab back to her house to have her dinner with her mum before her mum flew off to japan. went back to my house, have dinner, watch a little this and that before heading off to tamp  inter to have mac supper with karen and her friend and her friend's friend. haha! didnt realise me and karen so alike la can! breaking up with the guy for our future, having the feelings aftermath, sad and wanting some company, and then looking at this or that person, and everything else, and we're a lil' free. haha! then we have erm ..some sort of horoscope stuff coming up, which is same as well! haha! so her friend went off to smoking and we join them before heading to 800 plus to have a little drink with desmond cheong and his friend, a bit regretful though. haha! face still get really red as usual. took cab home and slept after changing clothes, and i thought that i could just sleep normally, lying flat on my back, only having to peel off my clothes away from my tattoo! GOSH! was almost afraid that my skin will get peel off as well. and the rose picture was on my shirt la! dey! so overwhelming can! spent the whole saturday at home watching shows and everything before trying to start my revision. Sun, went to meet eddy at kbox, pass him his stuff and show him the tattoo, haha! i off shoulder! :X a little paiseh now! hahaha! and i er.. push his face away when im doing a kara card and im supposed to take a picture and he's standing looking at me, haha! luckily he didnt do any surgery.  anyway the singing feeling wasnt there that day. so we sang from 2 plus till 5 only , before eddy drove us to pasir ris and have our delightful dinner there! haha! he bought chicken wing for me and family before he drive me home. there! good day spent. and today. :/ tax exam., please let me score at least a "b" ok?! i wanted to get a good gpa at least, more than 3 PLEASE, BOBI!!! cant help looking forward to thur and sat! cause we have singing session and florist aftermath! and on sat, we will be celebrating karen's birthday! hehe! and just. was "quarreling with pigying and i told her i only give money to my boy. so she went to the group whatsapp with me, py, sep, karen and eddy. and wrote this. "Eddy!! Eileen own me money she don't want return me. Can help me take from her?" so he huh, and she replied saying that she gave me 100 for me to eat and i dont want to return her, and eddy said:" Lol.. Don't think eileen would like tat de lo.." hahaha! i didnt know that he know me, i dont dare say he know me so well, but it's really sweet when a boy said that, knowing you. hahah! im like a happy can!hehehe. <3 thanks ah!!!!  byeeee!! i hope that there's more outing with just the both of us. even after a few months, 3 person said that we should be tgt. i wish you will ask me about it. and i hope that i will have the courage to tell you that secret of mine.

Finally exams are done with, not to mention those that are coming soon, next week or next next week i think? well, cambodia trip has been confirmed, hehe! i must enjoy, i shall not be angry, i have to endure and stuff, you know why? i just want to fully enjoy myself. it's been years since i last went overseas, and i love taking aeroplanes, so, hope nothing will spoil this trip. Will be sharing room with rachel, hehe, if not it will be weird. haha! hope that we will have something to talk about, since she's kinda mature and know how to think, should be ok one la right, haha! hope gina and ziying will talk more during this trip too! heh! anyway, have been watching the gu family book, damn nice la can! have been watching it to fill my mind, so as not to think about other stuffs. i guess i won't want to say that today is a bad day, shall ignore today so as not to spoil the entire day, i need some peace. Have been sleeping in the bus for these two weeks, im not sure why either, didnt realise that im that tired. zy said that it might be mental-----ly tired, haha! i er guess so? anyway, i passed both my exams, miracle yeah? haha! but it wasnt that great either. i badly wanted to get an A for accounting, and i did my best, too bad the last question pull me down. TSK! and i actually thought i can score at least a low B for taxation, too bad, i get a low D with 52 marks. what a fuck up theory exam. i really wanted to do well badly because this is the only change that i MIGHT pul up my grades to get a gpa of at least 3 to go up poly. but looking at the results now, it seems no. sigh!

Having some weird websites viewing my blog is weird. Just, Weird. Woke up slightly earlier than i do on normal weekends, probably about 3 hours earlier? hehe! tried to scribble down taxation notes as i'm having taxation exam on monday, and i have to admit, i'm late as usual, always a last minute studying. Days are always not enough for me despite having many days before exam, what i mean is, i'm always lazing around if i tried studying, and resulting in me not studying at all. Anyway, i was late, so was peiying, haha! we were supposed to meet at 12pm in case we were late, and yes, we are, we are all latecomers, Peiying, September and me. We went around bugis junction, getting our food first befor walking around, trying to find and get our stuffs, before we finally went to Mos Burger and get a seat there. We have a late lunch when Sep and Eric finally join us at 3 plus at a Japanese Restaurant (I can't remember the name) at bugis plus. And yes, the rice is great, really great, it's kind of like japanese rice, that's what written on the menu, don't blame me. Unfortunately, no pictures were taken because i'm too hungry, and everyone finishes their food before me and the thought of having the second bowl of rice really triggers me. The rice, is not what i'm always having at home, it was really delicious, and i wish that i can have that type of rice to eat everyday, big wish yeah?. Went to catch up with the girls outside the mall, by sitting on those "non-seats", laughing and stuffs. It was really great catching up with them although it's not that long since we last meet. well, truthfully, i met up with peiying more often and sep since to be busy these few days. Yes, it's been damn damn damn damn damn long since we last 3, just the three of us, met up together. Pardon my exaggeration. Anyway, i'm glad that i have such friends. To be honest, i really don't think friendships do last. The more you know that friend of yours, the more dislike you gain when you know about stuffs that you found unlikable to. Well, i guess that's it? i'm going to stop blogging right now, i need some sleep and i'm considering not to wake up at 5am but 7am, and now, 8 or 9 am. Will be studying with my siao eis' tml except for Gina. so, tadah! bye!


Ps. i really miss you, Don't ask me why. It's just so different from every relationship i have before. It's again, feelings that are different when you like that particular someone. I will have never known, when we first meet, i will fall for you. It's been years, and it's so sudden.  I sincerely doubt that you are feeling the same way for me too. I wish and hope though. but then again, i'm a gemini, i do flirt, not with those whom are attached though, and it's really hard for me to focus on a person or a thing for too long, you will never know when i will like another person. and! i have been reading horoscopes since march, reading our horoscope, i bet you don't know. hehe! but, it said that it's either a hit or a miss, and others said that we are only 40% compatible, this really depress me a lot. and your horoscope indicates you to be secretive, silent, cold, not wanting others to intrude your privacy and stuff, and yes, it's really hard to get close to you. you can be warm and then cold out of a sudden. Also, they stated that you are one of the most jealous astrology and i suddenly finds that i wish that you will be jealous for me, maybe those first few months if we can get together, then i will get really irritated, also, they have stated mine, and it's true, so so so so true. i change, really fast, feelings, humans, myself. i wish for the desire to stay as long as i can with you, and wish to change myself as much as i can to be a better person. Everyone said i have changed, like i mentioned in the previous post. i'm glad and i sincerely hope that i won't be back to the old me. I'm changing to be a more patient and quiet person for you. Although there's a phrase saying that " Don't ever change for anyone, be a real you" but then, this might change me to be a better person, so why not? and yes, i told myself that it's either a love or a hate. this is really true, if you can't get that person, you will hate that person. As for you, you aren't my cup of tea at all. You are not that warm and you are hard to be close to. Something that i really hate, as well as if we happen to quarrel, you will be really cold, and i don't like people whom i like to not share what they are thinking with me. It's like, if you are worried about something, told me, not because i want to laugh at you, but i just want to share your burden and hoping  to see if there's anything that i can do for you, or finding solutions together. Please don't keep stuffs to yourself. i Swear i hate it. :( and.. please come to me soon, haha! i'm sounding like a desperate woman, we might not work out at all, and i DO NOT want to spoil this friendship between us. But i'm still wishing you are mine, wishing that we will get over anything that came to us.
Goodnight!

annyeong. maybe i should state why im feeling so happy since that day till this afternoon? hehe.. well, i saw something that really make me happy? what's happier to see someone you like using the things you bought for him/her? yeah, hehe, so, that's one. another, i get to watch iron man 3! right, maybe i should be more truthful, hehe. i don't know much about iron man 3, neither did i watch the first or second season. and to be honest, i did have an appointment with a centre. But, hehehe.. eddy messaged me, and so we planned to watch iron man 3 at amk. hehe . so i ate before preparing. eddy reached first so he went to buy the ticket first. finally reaching and rush to the toilet, my bladder is spoilt, im so sorry, my clique all say i went to the toilet everytime, hehe. anyway, cant find eddy anywhere despite messaging him, therefore call him. went to ntuc to find him and get our drinks, (to be detailed, after i walked here and there trying to find him in the ntuc.) went to cotton on and stuffs and him trying to see if there's any clothes and shoes that suits him. going to the mac after that to order our kids meal, he ordered first, and i went to another counter to order, so there's this girl who came and asked me if i want the food to be placed in the kids meal box, i said no. eddy's food came after a while and they packed those food in the box. and i was like laughing.. never did i expect that.. mine came with it too. so i got laughed at too. :( finally, we are in time for our movie, and yes, it is a great show, haha. of course la, with those trends in twitter and so many people wanting to watch. right, and eddy's doing his job again, hehehe! cleaning those stuffs up, haha! who asked him to be sitting at the side and stuffs. anyway, movie was done with and we went back to cotton on again. so he tried his clothes on and i bought my cardigans. pity was, those shoes are not fittable, and those clothings are not suitable! heh! so we went to take mrt back to tpy and sitting down in those staircase talking while waiting for my bus to come, and then! hehe! both joanne and gina told me they were shock! heh! after school , went to peiying and she told me she is shock too! haha! maybe i should act that im shock. hehe! nevertheless, i have this feeling that i told them about. that it's just .. you know.. normal.. not wanting to disappoint myself, but neither do i want to have my hopes get high but got really disappointed instead. so.. yeah..

and so. i saw this , and i thought i really should share this.

一个女孩儿写的婚后感言，看完我失眠了！

有人说，谈恋爱的时候男友对女友的疼爱程度会随着结婚慢慢减少，到底这是不是事实呢？看看下面这些，是一个女孩儿写的婚后感言，写的真的很真实，看完我失眠了！

1、一夜，睡在老公身边，香香地做着美梦。老公不知怎了，“呼”地一下坐起来，我立刻被他吓醒，还没来得及问他怎么了，被窝里便伸过一双手来，摸到我还在，他便长长呼了一口气，重新躺倒，很快又听到鼾声。我在这个男人身边待了12年，很多事情都顺理成章地成了左手牵右手的平淡.那些最初的小感情、小悸动和小情绪，我们很久都没有了。这一夜屋外飘着薄凉的春雨、屋内暖暖的夜晚，忽然地，便想起了他很多很多的好。结婚10年，再相爱，激情和感动也被时间磨得体无完肤，但这一刻我忽然觉得，他比想象中爱我。

2、一入冬，我便总是手脚冰凉，他晚上的习惯性动作便是把我的手放到他的腋窝下，整个人像
个肉团一样被他搂在怀里。怕冰到他，我便会很不情愿地待一会儿，想趁他不注意再悄悄地抽出来。他发觉了，每次都是再霸道地夹紧，不容拒绝的力气和温暖。那一刻我会觉得，原来他比想象中爱我。

3、每次出门游玩，人多的时候，他总会把我圈在他身边，胳膊始终是半张的姿势，以确保身边

的人不会挤到我。有了儿子后，右臂里是我，左臂会把儿子抱在胸前，有他在，在任何地方都会觉得安稳与妥帖。那一刻我会觉得，原来他比想象中爱我。

4、有次他出差，晚上给我打电话，一直说了一两个小时，琐琐碎碎，第一次觉得他好唠叨。回

来后才告诉我，同住的人打电话知道家里天气不好，打雷打得厉害，他担心我会害怕，于是打电话陪我说话，转移我的注意力。问他，为什么不直接告诉我别害怕。他说，要是本来没害怕，这一问反倒害怕了呢？我的心里软得像一汪水，要怎样的爱，才能做得这样周全与细腻。那一刻我会觉得，原来他比想象中爱我。

5、锅碗瓢盆的日子，总会有架吵。每次吵架，只要到白热化的程度，他都第一时间跑到门口

占据位置，以确保我不会气急败坏地跑出家门。吵得最厉害的一次，我口不择言，自己都觉得狠狠地伤了他的心。他搬着自己的枕头跑去客厅睡，我正纠结着要怎么去道歉，他却跑回来，表情还是恨恨的，人却睡在我身边。那一刻我会觉得，原来他比想象中爱我。

6、这样的情感，总让我们不习惯太长时间的分离。他出差，原本是一周的时间，第五天便处理完事情早早跑回家来。敲门声再熟悉不过，我激动地打开门，挨了他劈头盖脸的一顿训：“也不问问是谁就开门，万一是坏人呢。”我撅着嘴巴满心的委屈。再看他拉得像长白山一样的脸，真恨不得揍他一顿。那一刻我会觉得，原来他比想象中爱我。

7、最近，最热衷的事情就是问他，是不是还如当初那么爱我？他大多时候都给个睥睨的眼神，心情好时才会赏一句“你说呢？”于是总感叹岁月的无情、围城的磨砺，偶尔会怀念恋爱时的卿卿我我，却忘了他给过的这么多好。忘记了他每次出差早上7点准时发来的起床短信，忘记他每次有事送我上出租车时，总会第一时间记住车号，忘记我剐蹭了车，粗心大意做错了事，他问的第一句话总是“你有没有伤到”……那一刻我会觉得，原来他比想象中爱我。

8、就是刚刚，我在写这篇文章，他窝在沙发上看电视，嗑瓜子。十几分钟的时间，他把手摊过
来，手心里都是剥好的瓜子肉，我感动地看他，那边还是一脸不耐烦，嫌我接瓜子的速度慢。那一刻我会觉得，原来他比想象中爱我。

9、想起来这么多年，无论是日子艰难的最初还是稍稍宽裕的现在，我喜欢的东西，他都是想了

办法买给我，从来没有一次不舍得。其实用钱衡量这样的感情很俗，但是很真实。我把这个感慨向身边的男人大发了一通，对方直视着我的眼睛，说：“你又想要什么了，直说吧。”这一刻我仍然觉得，原来他比想象中爱我。

编后语：看着这篇文章，心里的羡慕与向往隐藏不住……其实,一个女人想要的也就是这样了吧！

不图荣华富贵，不图安逸享乐,只愿身边的那个人可以这样,细微却真心的,无私又真诚的呵护着我,珍惜着我，一起面对困难又如何一起经历困苦又如何,只要你给了我这个信心让我相信可以去依靠一辈子,我又还会怕什么呢！