hi, well, i guess there's somethings that i can't share here. you know. there are times when you can never share how you are feeling and what are the problems. Because, eventually, it will lead to even more problems. and you will never know what will happen. anyway, school was really tiring for me, but i still went though, which was quite a shock to me, as well. I will have never thought that i will wake up just because i thought that i shouldn't miss lesson as it's going to be soooo hard to catch up. But then, the reason why i really want to go school was because i have a hope of going poly because my first year gpa wasn't high at all, in fact, it was damn low, i received only a gpa of 2 last term, although i know i did what i can, and i was hardly proud at my marks at all. So what i did was to look up and those poly gpas i have to get in order to go inside and i have to get at least 3. BUT! peiying told me that those were the lowest mark to get in there. sigh! and she said that her teacher told her that she need a total of 3.7/3.8? i can't remember exactly. and i was like.. sigh! But still, i hope that i will be able to get, and i was hoping that by joining floristy club, they might, just might, let me get into the course. i  don't really mind what course i can get into right now, because i just want to concentrate on how much gpa i can get right now. and i regretted that i did not bring my taxation book home. :( i could have revise tml, but i kept it in my school locker. Anyway, like i have mentioned above, i joined floristy club as my cca, and all i can say that was that it was really fun. Because i'm a person who loves to experiences every thing and i am really interested in florists right now. i used to not-like flowers in the past because there isn't any smell and sometimes, those smells can be awful, and i thought flowers aren't a great deal. However, recently, i found out that i actually like those sceneries and now, even flowers attracts me. okay, they don't really attracts me, but then, it's like, it became quite beautiful out of a sudden, especially one of the flowers that i bought back home is a sunflower, and i used to thought that there was nothing fanciful about sunflowers, however, after putting it in the vase, and seeing how it bloom, mmmmm. beautiful! hehe! anyway, i'm so looking forward to that cca, because it's going to teach us how to cut/trim, wrapping, and arranging, etc. and now, there's one thing that i'm looking forward to, and it's the school overseas trip. it's an exchanging programme, but  i'm not going to mind, because this is the only time that i can go overseas without having to spent my money. They are going to use our PSEA to pay half of the money, and the other half will be subsidies from the school! and the money that we are going to spent shopping on, is going to be our own money, hehe! i hope that there are somethings that i can actually buy, i mean something really nice and cool, something that you can't get from Singapore. I wasn't actually into this country because i was actually hoping for either some angmoh countries, or taiwan or korea. but no. Schools were merged into one, and they have not much expenses left, therefore, they are only allowing us to go to some neighbouring countries. these excuses are really T.T . But then again, it's better than nothing and i really loves going overseas. In fact, i love travelling a lot too. I guess i'm turning old. i actually loves to take photos of sceneries and such, and i wish to find out about those "secret places". what i'm actually referring to is, there are some places where buses are unable to get us to, because some of those places requires y ou to either drive in, or, you have to walk damn far to those places. Like those places which have good food, or those sceneries that you can't find in town area. yeah. so right now, i'm actually looking forward to cambodia, despite everyone telling me it's more of a "down" area, meaning it's not those fine or good looking places, not rich. right, i should stop telling such favourites of mine because there's much more to go. hehe! i should start on how my day is today. went for driving lesson at 5.30pm and went to city hall to have dinner with peiying. walked a little to see if there's any wallets suitable for her mother before heading to our favourite starbucks to get our drinks. we chatted like usual before wanting to experience what's outside, like enjoying those night views. went to the toilet before that but found out that there are constructions outside, so we went to mac instead to get our hot milo. talked somemore before deciding to go to the loo again before seperating. then there's nothing to write her anymore. hehe! so bye!

Just a random post here because i want to check my traffic audience. Right, school again today, and taxation is the worse lesson that i've ever been with. It's the most boring module of all. Especially when the teacher is Ms Chong, and she must have think that she's entertaining with her sarcarsm. The only good thing about her was probably her saying to everyone that they have to get their work done else she won't think of letting them into the class. Which is a good way probably? As i have to force myself to get work done, and normally, i won't force myself into doing that due to not interested in studying. But this year, i hope and i wish that i will study hard. But theory is a hard core for me. I can't memorise stuffs, and i'm ain't sure what i'm supposed to do. SIGH! also, i've checked those polys and the gpa we have to get to go into the course. i've only checked accounting, i'm not sure about others though, but each school stated 3. i really really hope that i am able to get into poly at least, i'm not going to care about what course i can get currently because i just wanna focus on getting my higher nitec gpa score well. so, let's put our hands together and pray that eileen will study hard yea.

I wish this isn't what i'm feeling right now. This feelings is something that i can't describe in details, jealous? foolish? angry? disappointed? sad? it's a mixture of everything. It's just hearing about you from other people and knowing that you guys talk/msg only, and i feel so groomy, it's something that i have not expected from myself, i have never thought that i will be jealous about any guys. And all i could ever was that, earlier. till you came, i wish i had not seen you, i guess one of the reason that i went there, was because i wanted to see you. but.. i guess there's nothing that i can say. i can only blame myself, for being naive and such, it should not be you. drinking has never been a better thing for me now, sis just bought back carlsberg for me, lucky me, i really need them now.

Erm herm, sku has past a week and it's on the second right now. 1st week was a bore because a pig is missing in our clique, hahaha! but that pig is back right now. And she's free of s&w, i so jelly right now because my mc is so dead, that it can't be use any more. well, since last year actually, but my cher allowed me to use instead. mmm, but today was a good day maybe? haha! not that good in the morning because i didnt told mum that im supposed to wake up late up today, so she keep nagging, haha, but , we went for lunch at eatzi gourmet, and im so happy because there's macaroon! OMG! im so happy ok! (but now i bring back and no one's eating and i really want to finish it by meself already ! haha! mum even asked me not to buy because it's ex, BUT! school got discount! WHY NOT?!!! ) and i ordered my half spring chicken, but the other day's taste better, because today's chicken a bit dry and i had a difficult time to eat as time has ran out and it's after 12.45 then only did the food come! so i tried gombling up everything! HEH! went back to class after that and what make me even happy is that i managed to do both question 5 and 6 and did it successfully! im not trying to be proud of what, it's just something that im too happy about because i managed to did it! like after more than half a year i managed to try accounts! because accounting is a hard subject for me, because there are times when i miss school or lessons, and i didnt know what to do, and getting damn fed up and stuff. yeah, HOPE that i will continue this way! hahaa! even teacher praise me, hehehe, *shy! okay bye!

hmm, so i managed to pull myself up from sleep to have lunch at grandparent's place. driving lesson were cancelled because i went to meet those pubors instead. reached there the first, before bro and sis start arriving respectively. then my cousin came out and talk, and i were really sleepy, so i watched an anime then i downloaded the other time, and she ask me accompany her to ntuc to walk walk, feel like rejecting her but feel so bad, stupid bro and sis chao geng. cousin went to bought her cake stuff, and she said this and that, so i pretend to help her find, haha, ok, i did help her find without my eyes closing, but there's nothing that she wants/needs. so we head to 5 other places. -.- argh! people want sleep, still need to accompany her, not that close to her, by the time we managed to go back, and went pass kopitiam, and her mum was there -.- so i have to walk back with them, although aunty says she has an headache, but they walked too slow, somemore this 2 people.-.- really what one.. reached grandma place finally, and heard cousin say that those xiao gua ah, never call people, hello., you also what, you got call people meh? -.- ate then drink my drink and go back already, these few times, never lend those small cousins my phone, found it damn irritating since that time, keep wanting to play people phone! I SMALL ALSO NEVER LIKE THAT, FOREVER REACH GRANDPARENT PLACE, ASK FOR PHONE ONE! SAY CANNOT SO MANY TIMES ALSO NEVER LISTEN! MUST SHOW THEM FACE THEN CAN! wapiang ei! their father, especially! treat them too good, rich also need like that meh?! as and when , when those cousin ask them can go playground, and the father forever saying ask jie jie go with you, HELLO! ACCOMPANY PLAYING MACHINE IS IT?! we also got work one hor, not like your children, got maid to service them, not that i hate those cousins of mine, but they are too spoilt alr, esp on those gadgets! argh! finally go home, an excuse not to lend them their phone, and because i need rush home to prepare, reach home, pubor said that she will be late, so i went to bed, because im too sleepy,, bath and then meet her after that, took bus to inter for dinner after getting her lens. went to buy some stuffs before piercing back my nose, then walk a bit before heading to smoking area to wait for karen, meanwhile waiting, saw xinxue, talk a while and karen reach alr, talk somemore, then finally went to take mrt to eunos, slack over there and talk, waited for eric to reach, slack awhile more before heading home. and tml. -.- zzz. stupid xiong i swear, forget it, not going to type here to ruin my mood, next time, im not going to help you plan or whatever shit! _|_ go accompany your gf forever, CB!

hi hello hello hi, went to sing on tuesday with huiying and xiong before he start work, after singing , went to meet sep peanut and aimson for dinner. by the time we finished it, it's already past 9. went to tam 1 with huiying while the others went for a smok break, found them and catch up awhile before leaving. The next day, time were wasted by watching shows. at night, went to mac with xiong before heading over to my house void deck and ate the otah which taste awful, went to the playground and talk about the past, how much i miss it. Used to spent time with him and eddy almost everyday last time, only thing is i cant get out of the house too often, but now, i can, but no one's really free, It's been years since we last 3 went out together but eddy's often not free, and that's one of the thing that .. sigh.. went to look at the blog we three used to share together 6 years before, and read all those post, hao huai nian ley, reading those posts and stuffs, how much stuff i have forgotten, but credit to myself though, haha, i wrote some of them in there before. lucky me. one of the blog post i've written is that i've slap a phillipine manager, haha! i totally forgot about it till i read it. It's like eddy bought a wallet for lin jiang for his birthday,lj went to wash his hand and put his wallet near the buns, june saw, he picked it up and slam it on the floor, i remember how he did, i was beyond shock, so i slap him, and he slap me back, and i said that one is lj's wallet, he said that he thought that it's xiong's wallet, like you slam the wallet and you dont know who is it, and you dont like xiong and you have to do something like that? sibei fucker, i wish i have slap him harder, but then again, i have never thought that i will slap anyone before, i must have really thought that i only know how to scold ppl, never did i thought that i used to be that chor lor, haha, anyway, i really miss the past, like how we 3 used to went out together to different malls, all living in tamp and heading to places like woodlands and sengkang. playing talking, those moments are moments that we speak from our bottom, we got angry but get back tgt, i really really really miss it, xiong also say i change, i used to be so noisy, singing and become crazy, but now. im far too quiet already, because sometimes, when you want to be fun, but others are just not fun, haha! even his gf too, he say his gf wan bu qi, haha, but true enough, each time he bring his gf out with us, we all will be quiet, because it's just awkward and his gf dont talk one lor, haha! right now, it's either me and eddy go out or me and jun xiong go out, like. :( those periods that i stay with them are before me and shiva got tgt , now i think i have regret, haha, actually, i dont know if i do , or not, but if it's wasnt for me and shiva, we three will have remain that way, because i spent lesser time with them and even more ever since shiva dont like me hanging out with them, but im glad im stupid enough but not that stupid, i still keep a few contacts with them, haha, secretly hanging out with them at times, because after that, i became best friend with belle, and rarely keep close contact with them. realised that eddy sometimes keep calling me out but i never meet him, haha! but now, everything and everyone change.hmm, really miss it, hope eddy will faster come and catch up with us.