I don't miss him, i miss how i used to be able to receive embrace, hugs, holding hands and stuffs, yes, but not from you. i miss you. And how often do i wish that you will do those. i don't like waiting, i've never been patient before, im more of a worrying and clumsy kind, i can't wait, i did my best though, i am greedy, despite trying not to, sep told me not to expect more, py told me that yes, you are that kind of person i will never want. i knew that your personality is nothing more than what i least expected, something that i really don't like, i don't like anyone who is unable to trust me, secretive and such, i am stubborn, yes, just like you. But i wish that you won't behave like this, i've been looking at our horoscopes for weeks. And all that i've read, it's either a hit or a miss, i thought that i can try although i don't have the confidence i can do it, and i'm just so worried right now that i can't tolerate this distance for a long time. Each single time im out with you, and all im thinking was, are you going to hold my hand,or smth, i wish you are. and i just cant tolerate how each day, i am staying this way, thinking of you, each and single time i break away from what im doing. i thought of you each and single moment, and i just can't help it, i don't get what i'm doing and it's getting me frustrated. i just wish you will tell me what it was. why don't you tell me how you feel about me, i have a feeling that it's negative, and how i'm hoping it's the opposite. i know i don't look pretty and everything, i have a personality and character that no much people will like, yeah, i hate myself too. but i still hope and wish that you will look at me in a different way and tell me that it's ok and everything, and you giving me a feeling that looks aren't everything to you, and you just want me in your life. i have not much patience anymore, and i'm ain't sure what i'm supposed to do. how?