Destroy what destroys you

Saturday, December 15, 2012

8:55 AM

What can i say? we have been through four years, so many happy and unhappy memories, and suddenly it just disappear, although im the one who said i want it off, but seriously, it has suddenly gotten into me that i cant behave chilish anymore, i cant throw my irritation to just anybody, and i felt that i could not even love myself, as i have done so many terrible things. i wish i can just have a replacement of you, no i dont miss you, i felt sorry to you instead that you have been there for me and i just , dont love you anymore. i told myself, even now, that our feeling was real, at least there's some of it left during your birthday, but when it reaches my birthday, it's like, out of a sudden, as if you knew that im going to leave you, you came and celebrate my birthday with me for the first time despite those past three years you did not, it's been four years, short to those old people, long to those teenagers, to me, i still cant figure out if it's a good thing or a bad thing that i had met you, because both are the reason. i don't love you anymore, and i think im sure of it, it's just that i miss having someone i can throw my temper at although it's not their fault, and then suddenly i have no one to turn to, like no one i can share everything with. it's just. not the same anymore. i do not wish that you will come back to me, instead, i wish someone willl quickly come and take over you. but what im sure of, is that no one can take me like you did. i knew that it's been hard on you too. i am a very unreasonable to you, even if it's not your fault, it turned out to be yours now. and i knew that if we were to go back tgt, the feelings are still not going to come back, and im going to feel weirder before. i sincerely wish that somebody will guide me out of here. i felt like it's a punishment, i hope that you will find someone else and let me take the blame alone, because you should find someone else who will appreciate you, i did not seize the chance that i received and you did not blame me for that, i felt that it will be better if im the one who should just , get all the blame and everything. i wish i can wrote what im thinking over her, but no.

NOTE

Not for tagboard. Sorry not sorry.
NOTES FOR MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE.

1. Know yourself.
2. Understand what makes you feel great.
3. Recognize things that get you down.
4. Set goals to achieve what you want.
5. Develop trusting friendships that makes you feel good.
6. Don't be afraid to ask for help.
7. Stand up for your beliefs and values.
8. Help someone else.
9. Take responsibility for your own actions.
10. Take good care of yourself.

Think positively.
Exercise daily.
Eat healthy.
Work hard.
Stay strong.
Worry less.
Dance more.
Love often.
Be happy.

"Never expect too much. When you get your hopes up. You hurt yourself more than you need to."

Travelling all over the world
Trying all sorts of food over the world
Having different types of experiences.
Nature
Scenery
Photography
Acting
Singing
Having fun
Eating

Hating isn't on my list. It's time to love myself more.
I distance myself from people for a reason. A good one.
Destroy what destroys you.
Free Myself

Treasure the unknown last.
Anything could be the last.
You are not in competition with anybody but yourself
Plan to outdo yourself.
Not other people.

Believe you can and you're halfway there.
- Theodore Roosevelt

Making a big life change is pretty scary
But regret is much scarier.

If you don't go after what you want
You'll never have it.
If you don't ask
The answer is always no.
If you don't go forward
You're always in the same place.

The lesser you care
The happier you will be.

Keep shits to youself
In reality, no one give a fuck.

DECIDE.COMMIT.SUCCEED.