Right, pratically, i have nothing much to update cause my brain is sleepy right now. Anyway, this year, i found myself unable to keep my temper from blowing up, although i thought that i did a good job of tolerating, but not to forget, i can tolerate, but not that much, one day i will just shout like some crazy woman, it's just so stress, you have to tolerate people from work, family and school. Everything suddenly irritates me too much. Meanwhile, i found some friends that i am supposed to keep away from, they say those friends from those backgrounds are not worth it. But i felt the other way, people who had lived peaceful life, with no background, they do not use their brain at all, they didnt realised what kind of life you have had experienced before, we cant blame them, but at least, those people should be sensible enough that what they have said, they should not have say. blame them for being naive, ignorant! if only these people can afford to stand in others' shoes. it's some of those friends who have background, then they realised it will probably hurt if they were you and they were try to understand. but yet, some people who really have a bless life, and have pratically nothing to get emotional about. they get too emotional. i just dont understand, you guys have not gone through anything that has really hurt yet, although i said like i have been through and i have indeed, there's going to me more problems in the future, stop crying over  nothing yea, you have nothing to cry about, seriously. anyway, school is going to be a bother for me, i feel like just taking private for early childhood and stuffs, or just to navy, no boys, no life, they said, im not sure either, but at least they give you a good pay, cause we are working under the government, and while you are busy serving the country, at least you dont have that much problem to worry about. and yea, i realised that some friends of mine, nah, i feel like not keeping them. They are not going to be there for you. well, i guess i really need a drink soon, cant tolerate all these shits and those shitty people! #BadLuckEileen