Right, pratically, i have nothing much to update cause my brain is sleepy right now. Anyway, this year, i found myself unable to keep my temper from blowing up, although i thought that i did a good job of tolerating, but not to forget, i can tolerate, but not that much, one day i will just shout like some crazy woman, it's just so stress, you have to tolerate people from work, family and school. Everything suddenly irritates me too much. Meanwhile, i found some friends that i am supposed to keep away from, they say those friends from those backgrounds are not worth it. But i felt the other way, people who had lived peaceful life, with no background, they do not use their brain at all, they didnt realised what kind of life you have had experienced before, we cant blame them, but at least, those people should be sensible enough that what they have said, they should not have say. blame them for being naive, ignorant! if only these people can afford to stand in others' shoes. it's some of those friends who have background, then they realised it will probably hurt if they were you and they were try to understand. but yet, some people who really have a bless life, and have pratically nothing to get emotional about. they get too emotional. i just dont understand, you guys have not gone through anything that has really hurt yet, although i said like i have been through and i have indeed, there's going to me more problems in the future, stop crying over  nothing yea, you have nothing to cry about, seriously. anyway, school is going to be a bother for me, i feel like just taking private for early childhood and stuffs, or just to navy, no boys, no life, they said, im not sure either, but at least they give you a good pay, cause we are working under the government, and while you are busy serving the country, at least you dont have that much problem to worry about. and yea, i realised that some friends of mine, nah, i feel like not keeping them. They are not going to be there for you. well, i guess i really need a drink soon, cant tolerate all these shits and those shitty people! #BadLuckEileen

Hello, am here to update about a real boss that i have been following since im 14. i started working with him as that is my 2nd job. when we first met each other, it's at expo, the place where i used to work, for 5 years already. That is when me and sam, xueming, cheng rong and ben were interviewed. Neither did i expect that so many things will happen after that, good or bad, but nevertheless, im really glad that i've know him, so, whenever i have the chance, i told those friends of mine, that, William is a really good manager. Also, i did so many things that are bad before, and never did he really kick me out of anything. keke. I'm always late for work, and when i mean late, i meant 5-6 hours the most. and he really dote on me, i guess? abit ps to say this out, haha!Because there's once after smth happen, and i didnt work for about 2 - 3 months, and when i about to come back, just before that incident finished, he was going to leave for manhattan already, and all the staffs were there. and then he talked to each and single one of us, and when it's my turn, he was like nodding at head after looking at me, a slight nod i mean, then say actually ah, eileen is the best counter crew i've ever seen, she... " and others were like clapping and stuffs, haha, i was so happy at the bottom of my heart, the most sincere words i have ever heard, and the most consoled words i have ever heard since that incident. im so ashamed of that particular incident thats why. Well, there are accidents/incidents, such as me stealing money for me and jun siong to use. Dont say me hor, haha! it's what stupid teenagers used to do. haha! but neither did they call for the police, and neither did he scold me, and neither, that he tell my mum or anyone in my family, up till now. And then, there were incidents that were very bad that i cant really update here, but i did told a few close friends of mine. He helped me talk to shiva as he were my boyfriend that time. (a bit too fast to say that time right, i know. but..) he adviced me, helped me, talked to me, and then there were words of consoles. (Now i really feel bad that i didnt really contact him, well, he dont reply through fb, and i didnt know what to msg him about, but im consider ok already hor, haha, whenever i go pass the place he worked at, i will go find him one hor, haha. and there there's incident such as people stealing drinks from the chiller, and of course i do know who it was, although i still didnt say it. but the funny thing was, he was so bloody angry, but then, after he gathered everyone and show how angry he is and said everything he wants to say, he walked past us, back to his office, he stopped beside me and he said my bag very nice hor, steal the chain from broiler one ah, haha! then he tell dina, then dina call me monkey and then said something else. haha (that bag was a trend during that period, and the broiler thing, i forgot what's what called, but it's a fashion, and broiler is the thing that grill meat, so.. haha!) anyway, everyone call me monkey back then, and eventually, to manhattan where everyone call me monkey as well. haha! too used to it already, and when i called him earlier to ask him why he asked me go find him, cause its totally random, haha. he call me hou zi, hou zi is weimin's name la, haha. not mine. anyway, it was totally fun to work with him. everytime . if he works outside at the first counter, then i expertise him, i was just so fast and fun! haha! cause i served too fast, im like exercising you know, haha! mm, then when he's in the kitchen and im outside, we will shout at each other like faster la! why fast! people waiting la! ask them wait la, i do burger leh, so nice! nice your head la, faster la! nb! haha. it was really hectic and chaotic and awesome! i really do miss that moment, and always wished he worked with us often, cause when he worked at bk, he seldom work, and he's too lazy to work in the morning i guess, haha! then he asked me if im still with shiva, i told him no, and he say congratulation, and i was like haha! why congrat! then he say if not what , cannot be something that i cant remember what he said which was funny.then he say sherlyn slim down a lot and she changed already. then sherlyn told him she slim but i become fatter, haha, but then he ask me about something that still remains from the past and say not to bother, cause growing older and something already.and then he said something like there's a boss he used to work for long time ago, and he opened a shop recently, and he's looking for waitress so he asked me, but he know i wont want to, haha, then i told him i no time to work and other stuffs and im learning to drive, then he asked me why drive, want be taxi driver ah, haha, then say next time i comfirm be, anyhow! LOL! then start asking me who i always hang out with, then i say eddy, cheng rong and ben. then he say good la, that i should not know those bu san bu si people anymore, then with cheng rong they all good la, haha, then ask me if im not going out with jun siong already meh, haha, then he say he saw him a few times already, then i told him ya, jun siong got say, then say he ask jun siong worked for him, and william say  no, he and benson so close where will like that treat benson, dont listen to him (jun siong) then i say  i know, then he say he always anyhow say, cannot believe one. and i really know, haha, cause each time i tell tan jun siong a single thing, whenever he say out to me or tell another person, it sounds totally wrong and it brings out trouble -.- then i told him that time i say chun long, he at downtown at stuff, then william ask if i still got contact with him meh, so i told him not often, he say dont so close to him cause that person also no good one. hhaa! machiam like my counsellor right, haha, he will be at expo bk on sat, cause ah che just called him in the afternoon, got xin shi want talk to him. haha, somemore his pay increase 5000 more than the 3000 dollar pay in manhattan, only things is that he needs to go overseas for 2 years, can only come back singapore twice a year. haha, ask about his wife, he say if she free, she go down to that country find hiim lor, haha, but the surprise thing was that , valerie didnt tell him im working at united square. weird right. i know, hmmm.also, that time khine went to united square, then val tell me, then she told me not to worry and that she never tell khine, im like, i never even said anything, and i didnt even worried if they are there or not?! like seriously, same pattern with belle sia -.- automatic think they think so well for others but didnt know that they are actually making something happen out of nothing. anyway, i really miss william, the fun part and of course, those parts where those incidents happen and he help me, he helped me a lot of times, although i cant remember many of them now. Somemore he told me not to find bu san bu si people again, haha, and asked me to do good things, erm not really good things la, hhaha, something like do good or what. :)

yeah, have been working during the holidays, and of course, things don't always stays the same, there are happy and unhappy moments. But then, which job doesn't? anyway, have been meeting up with a few old people. i can't remember the exact dates. But then, during the holiday, went to kbox with siao eis, to ben house that time, meet up with rolie for sakae sushi, with jun siong and quan to my work place and movie, and were rather pissed about that day with the both of them, and as for the rest of the time, i can't exactly remember what i did. Anyway, to the kbox with siao eis, apparently, didnt quite enjoy it when we first reach, reason being, because tan jun siong never say those information properly, but then it was back to normal later, which we went to popeyes for dinner and then a little walk around before heading home. As for makcik, it's her idea to go there, although im a bit sick of sushi's already, but it's quite a period since we last met, so.. and then we saw her 4 handsome italian? or france boyfriends maybe? haha! the first time i saw her looking! keke! then we went to the toilet and we didnt even see the sign of boys toilet, and we just walked in, cause apparently, the door is open and only a boy toilet sign is there, so we thought the girls toilet is probably inside, cause most malls toilets, gents and ladies were kinda beside each other, apparently not, and we burst out laughing, out loud. and it's at the opp side, and a guy was looking at us. haha! went back to plaza sing, walk around, then went to daiso to get makcik's stuffs, then 7-11 before heading home. But ot before we agree to meet soon, for chilli crab and cutting hair session, and yes, to kpo at some old places we went before, haha! cause she's starting school soon too! and it will be hard for us to meet up. and of course, we did managed to gossip like what we normally do. heh! and then the pissed off part, and it happen on sat! bloody hell, i was supposed to do a meet up with my friend cause i bought something from her. and i shouldnt be late, plus i have to get my pay at novena before heading back to tamp as im meeting her at 12 like that, and told him the latest time to meet is 9 at simei platform. he told me he is still eating and talking to his grandmother at 9.30-9.45 like that. then i wait of course. and that bloody idiot, told me he reach simei or smth. but no sign of him, until perhaps 10 mins later, he asked me where i am, and say he reach already, and he could not find me. then nvm, at that moment, there's a mrt train, and it's leaving, i thought i could just go into the train and signal him if i see him, but no sign of him. and during the period of waiting, although i told him the latest time to meet is 9 and he is late, and i feel like smacking his face already, because he's late, and he's making me late, why dont he just tell me that he wont be able to make it or smth? and has the nerves to tell me that he actually wants to sleep already then he received my call. Then nvm, i shouted at the platform, i swear, cause im too angry already, and he keep telling me he leaving soon or smth or what already, why dont i just go first instead of waiting for him that way right? shouted at him to meet at novena. then nvm, he met me at city hall, and guess what he told me. he said he was in the mrt when he saw me talking otp with him. and he bloody get down at tanah merah, and then get to the same train at me, so i asked him why didnt he call me or anything, then he tell me and say he dont know i still angry or not mah, i never reply him, cause im still angry, although i kind of press it down, during the ride to city hall without knowing that he's there in the same train with me, and i have to keep my head up because i felt like crying due to being too angry, FOR a few times. so guess what, evening when i finally got home, and i saw me posting in fb saying that he's in TAMPINES MRT OTW TO MEET SISTER WHICH IS ME. and hell yea, he didnt know that im still angry although not that angry apparently, but im not going to meet him that soon! thanks ah brother! then nvm, reaching tamp that time, quan call, it's been erm, a year or smth that i last saw him, cause nobody likes it when they have boyfriend and he is pinching their cheeks. and i decided that we should meet cause i thought it will be ok. but apparently not, and when we went to eat, and he kinda order? jun siong to sit on the other side cause he stand me standing on a side, so i purposely go the place where jun siong is being told to sit, BUT! quan come and sit with me, and it's damn gao wei! cause he has to put his arms so big when drinking soup, and i dont feel like having our arms accidentally touching, although i know him for 5 years already.! also, the way he talk to jun siong, it's like. i know la, cause he always spent a lot of money, borrowed a lot of money and then no money, so we have to pay for him and such. but quan talked to him like very haolian or smth? erm, im not sure how to describe it exactly, but it's like he keep saying something like jun siong no money, aiya we pay for him half half lor, when i say dont want to eat jack place, eat foodcourt instead, cause it will be bad for jun siong if he cant pay, but he keep insist, AND jun siong nvr say anything!-.- nvm, then there's a lot of things he said, that isnt really good to hear! it's awful but again, maybe because jun siong own him a lot, thats why he feel that he has no stand to say anything! but seriously, i dont know. it's like.WTF. k, nvm, he went to jun siong house, and i have to go home to bath then go to my grandma place. he say he dont want go home so early, say nth to do, jun siong nvr sleep, and he has to work, then we ask him dont go work cause he not enough sleep, then he has to go home change pants cause he dont want tell his grandma, then han quan, keep saying like i have to go grandma home, then i dont want go home, then say smth to jun siong like you want go work then dont take mc lor, see how you work. like seriously, please -.- but the worst part was neither of the above, although he keeps talking bad about jun siong , no matter whether jun siong was there or not. walao , how old already, seriously, still dont know how to think. nvm. then he fucking pinch me on the cheek, not pain, gentle one, but when im with shiva that time, he pinch me, and i fucking dont like, and told him to stop , and then we went to k with my friends and he did that to them too, and the reason why, when we go out, we dont call him. and i was too tired and sleepy to shout at him because early in the morning, im already in a black mood cause of jun siong. bloody hell. nah, not going to meet the both of them for quite a while. anyway, told sep about some of the things that's been on my mind and she know who it was in one guess. but the sad part is, i didnt manage to tell her everything, and i still not sure what i should do till now!. ah then on friday, i met up with peiying at bugis at 4 plus, cancelling the sentosa trip, then we went to eat kfc and has a little talk, then walk around before meeting sept, and we walked a little before going to 7-11, and we passed by 7-11, cause we miss it out. LOL! went for a smoke break before we finally decided to go drink at mos burger, then i went off to sept's house, cause we have nothing better to do and we have to wait till 1.30 to 2 am in the morning to meet the rest of the peeps. watch resident evil at her house, before meeting eric and he drive us to befok 85 to meet another batch of people first, and we went to eat first, cause by the time we are going to meet karen they all, the food stalls are going to close. then we went over to derek's gf house downstairs, and slack for quite a period, and me and sept were watching to the beautiful you. LOL! and she laugh because one part reminds her that elin tan falls down because of a leaf. LOL! then we finally decides to go off to karen's workplace there, and there's no toilet :/ then i have to wait for quite a period. also, a couple join us, eric's friend, and we were talking at the exercising place there, and there's a sign showing "beware of drunk people" something like that, at karen's working place. LOL! then me and sept went back to the exercising place there and we talked a lot, and then there's a part when sep and eric kinda quarrel and sept scold him pubor, and eric turn to me and say, ei, she call you leh, why you never ans? haha! but that's because me and sept call each other pubor, then finally, jason, zhiwei, vincent and a guy i dont know finally arrived, but they were at the opp side. so we wait till karen finally end work, and karen actually cried cause of a dumb manager. we then leave for a petrol station finally for a toilet break, then went over to the teloh blangah hill park, sorry that i forgot how to spell it and i forgot the exact name, we stop for a mac takeaway first, before we finally can settle off to the real place, and there was no real place to seat cause there's a total of 10 people. talk and joke over there, before leaving at about 4, for a petrol station and then eric and the rest sent me home. and today, was the reopening of school days, and we received textbooks and it was a disaster the moment i saw the things inside . hope i can manage to buck up then. anyway, i know there are somethings which i havent post here, and i forgot what those things are. so. im just gonna end here, since it's not a good day after all.