Destroy what destroys you

Thursday, August 9, 2012

4:39 AM

You jmade me unable to respect you, after that time, the next day in school, i even cried, keep crying each time it came across my mind, now whatever you said. SERIOUSLY, you got such a rude and bad mouth. since that incident, i have not call you dad, even when sometimes after i came home, looking at you and think if i should, i end up did not. now, i am not going to call you dad anymore. mum ask me see both sides. just told her that each time after im upset, i think for both, i even tell people that i know that he's a patient, that's why he's upset, and also because he worried for mum. i know! fuck! but that it's not going to change any thing now, absolutely. she even said unlike last time, she will try to give him reasons and tell him. please, he will say "shi la, hor, shi lor" then after that, he will come blame me say you go tell your mum lor. CHAO CHEEBYE! everything that happens in my family is because of you bitch, stop blaming me for cursing on you, you made me lose my respect to you. Not like i never help you speak out before k! you are stubborn, so am i, everything that i have become, it's all because of you! DONT EVER FORGET, HOW YOU TREATED US SO WELL WHEN WE ARE FUCKING YOUNG! NOW! those things that you have said, i seriously felt like punching you, fancy you saying wanting to beat me? nah, not a chance, 'father', if i can, i will have already, throw every single thing i see on your face, using some of them to smack them across your mouth, if anyone is going to say me being unkind and rude, if you were here, listen to what he had said, and see what you are going to do, if you are me. every single time, it's you, mum have to work hard, because of you, sherlyn and william became that way, it's all because of you too! it we were to find out who is the main cause that this family has turned upsidedown, it's because of you. SHUT UP ABOUT EVERYTHING BITCH, i even want to continue shouting and cursing you if only mum isnt here. and if you are to die just now, i really really cant imagine saying sorry to you even if i have a sign or feeling remourseful and guilty. and i realy really think that, if you have died earlier, mum wil not have to work al these jobs. FUCK YOU, LIKE , SERIOUSLY.

NOTE

Not for tagboard. Sorry not sorry.
NOTES FOR MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE.

1. Know yourself.
2. Understand what makes you feel great.
3. Recognize things that get you down.
4. Set goals to achieve what you want.
5. Develop trusting friendships that makes you feel good.
6. Don't be afraid to ask for help.
7. Stand up for your beliefs and values.
8. Help someone else.
9. Take responsibility for your own actions.
10. Take good care of yourself.

Think positively.
Exercise daily.
Eat healthy.
Work hard.
Stay strong.
Worry less.
Dance more.
Love often.
Be happy.

"Never expect too much. When you get your hopes up. You hurt yourself more than you need to."

Travelling all over the world
Trying all sorts of food over the world
Having different types of experiences.
Nature
Scenery
Photography
Acting
Singing
Having fun
Eating

Hating isn't on my list. It's time to love myself more.
I distance myself from people for a reason. A good one.
Destroy what destroys you.
Free Myself

Treasure the unknown last.
Anything could be the last.
You are not in competition with anybody but yourself
Plan to outdo yourself.
Not other people.

Believe you can and you're halfway there.
- Theodore Roosevelt

Making a big life change is pretty scary
But regret is much scarier.

If you don't go after what you want
You'll never have it.
If you don't ask
The answer is always no.
If you don't go forward
You're always in the same place.

The lesser you care
The happier you will be.

Keep shits to youself
In reality, no one give a fuck.

DECIDE.COMMIT.SUCCEED.