Destroy what destroys you

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

3:12 AM

Have been feeling really down ever since that day. Why? maybe i have been thinking quite a lot, and maybe not? Yes, reasons, are mostly always because of the same people. my family, my friends, Shiva. and of course, my feelings. and yes, partly because of work and studies too. This year, i thought it will be quite eventful but for a start. It don't seems like it. Especially since school starts. and then classmates, and then the school work, and then everything else. Have been flaring my temper up highly lately. I got easily irritated, pissed off, annoyed and unhappy. Even if it's just a small thing that im dissapointed about. And yes, even though there are people around me, but still, no one will be able to get the same feeling like me unless they are experiencing the same thing at the same time as me. I really, really wish that i have a place that i can throw all my feelings about. So that they wont come near me anymore. I really feel that im a burden to everyone, even myself. and yes, i really hate myself. i dislike my character, i detest my feelings, i hate my temper, and im totally dissapointed at myself. Why am i always thinking so badly of myself? If i am my friend, i will have dislike her too. i do have some luck too, i have good friends, ziying. yes, although i cant tell her everything that i have in my mind, still, she tried her best to understand. and yet, im sorry, i still throw my tempers at you sometimes, and i even get pissed off with you easily. and that's what got me even irritated with myself, which got myself pissing myself off. and im really sorry to my clique, that i havebeen so yeltchy this few weeks. i really wish, that i can go somewhere far, alone, to cool myself down, to enjoy the peace. If only they could happen. I wish that i wont be able to hear my ugly thoughts out. i wish and wish that i can get peace. Seriously, everything is blinding me up, with my pack schedule, with my stupid feelings, my fucking thoughts, and everything else. i just want to imagine, myself, in a place where there's nothing out there to get myself sad and dissapointed, to just sit in the bath tub, sleeping, where nothing bad can reach me at all. How i really wish, how i really imagine.

NOTE

Not for tagboard. Sorry not sorry.
NOTES FOR MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE.

1. Know yourself.
2. Understand what makes you feel great.
3. Recognize things that get you down.
4. Set goals to achieve what you want.
5. Develop trusting friendships that makes you feel good.
6. Don't be afraid to ask for help.
7. Stand up for your beliefs and values.
8. Help someone else.
9. Take responsibility for your own actions.
10. Take good care of yourself.

Think positively.
Exercise daily.
Eat healthy.
Work hard.
Stay strong.
Worry less.
Dance more.
Love often.
Be happy.

"Never expect too much. When you get your hopes up. You hurt yourself more than you need to."

Travelling all over the world
Trying all sorts of food over the world
Having different types of experiences.
Nature
Scenery
Photography
Acting
Singing
Having fun
Eating

Hating isn't on my list. It's time to love myself more.
I distance myself from people for a reason. A good one.
Destroy what destroys you.
Free Myself

Treasure the unknown last.
Anything could be the last.
You are not in competition with anybody but yourself
Plan to outdo yourself.
Not other people.

Believe you can and you're halfway there.
- Theodore Roosevelt

Making a big life change is pretty scary
But regret is much scarier.

If you don't go after what you want
You'll never have it.
If you don't ask
The answer is always no.
If you don't go forward
You're always in the same place.

The lesser you care
The happier you will be.

Keep shits to youself
In reality, no one give a fuck.

DECIDE.COMMIT.SUCCEED.