HO!! hey guys, it's been a few.. erm.. days after i last blogged. Anyway, i was posted to accounting in higher nitec. hehe ^^ and i have pierced back my nose. And next sunday, i will be celebrating my grandparents birthday in tam with ALLLLLLL my relatives and families. iit's been a long time since i last seen some of them. Also, i will be meeting the person who sell those USS tickets on this thursday, and i will be going USS on the 13th.!! Let's hope i will be able to make it for that all right. and those above are the good news. NOW. i will be leaving my current work place either on the 10th or 15th March. But then, here come the sad news. i keep reminding myself of Jayraj. i miss him so much. :( who knows how and what he is like now. How tall he is, how adorable and handsome he will be. SIGH! if only i can control myself. anyway, i dont wanna make myself feel so sober. hmm, i have been watching some animation these few days due to one of the show named spirited away. and that is a totally awesome show. i watched it last year, but these 2 days, i watch some more show that was written by the same author. well, i went to wild wild wet today although i really dont feel like going at all. It's because i have let down my sister quite a few times as i had promised to go with her those few weeks. But due to feeling lazy and exhausted, i have to go today else those tickets will expired. So i finally head down there with my sister after feeling so relunctant. :(( and we went to the erm, what's that call i dont remember, well it goes one big round. and then we head to tsunami, and went for the thing, er, the one which you came down with another person facing you from a level, the feeling which makes you feel like you are flying aithout any seatbelts or holding anything. heh! and then we went for another big round that we went for the first time before going for ulah-lah, but, lighting came, so me and sherlyn went to our lockers to grab our bags, have a winglet with fries that taste disgusting. Expired fries, and winglets mixed! with drumlets, that look like those that are brought from NTUC! and! they were put into a little box and it cost 8.95 dola. which is THAT awesome! EWWWW!! should have grabbed some KFC instead, and it's way cheaper, and it came along with 1 side order and a drink as well. hmm, we went for a bath, and walk to the bus stop, and saw ee eng on the way, and took bus to pasir ris to get my nose piercing done and top up my ez link before i get my honeydew milk tea, that taste damn sweet, got on another bus after missing 1, and arrived at my grandma house, and then.. ah hong, my cousin's husband drive me home. and then, byebye.

heyhey, well. i dont really wanna update lots of things here, except, perhaps, some of my feelings? Hmmm, i have been feeling quite down lately. And it's not entirely about my family or my relationship with shiva. i knew that most of it has to do with me. im getting on my own pathetic nerves. i did those wrong things, i got angry and fed up, i got even irritated with myself, and i blame it on shiva and my family. i tried controlling. But sometimes, i refused to speak anything, and they keep persisting me on telling what i wanted to say, or have already said but they heard nothing of it. And yes, the best part is, out of everything, the one that i hated the most is to keep repeating myself. So i get angrily easily over 'nothing'. But when i send some people msg and when they still dont get it, and keep asking me, when i re-read what i had sent again and again, that, of course, is not going to be my fault. unless i knew that some of those msgs requires me to explain even clearer. And.. argh! i really dont know what i am up to anymore. i dont know what i had done to make myself like this. It's like, what am i doing? Did i did some stupid stuffs just to get myself work out? Sometimes, i tend to get no solution, and the reason why? im aint sure of anything.

heyheyhey!! i saw this in fb and i tot i will like to do it here instead, so.. tada!!!
‎20 Likes and I will do this.
200: My name is: Eileen Sim Yi Jun
199: I was born in: Singapore KK hospital
198: I am really: mad crazy hot tempered fabulous mental lovable easily-irritated person.
197: My phone company is: Singtel, yes, that lousy company.
196: My eye color is: ahh, hazel brown or black?
195: My shoe size is: ah, 38
194: My ring size is: ah, i have never measured them before, plus my bf even brought the wrong one for me.
193: My height is: 157, dont mention it anymore, i know im short.
192: I am allergic to: those bloody people, mosquito and cockroach
191: My 1st car was: ehhhh, a few months or next year probably.
190: My 1st job was: yoshinoya. the place where i throw a customer bowl of food into the bin when she havent even start on her food.
189: Last book you read: first term at malory tower
188: My bed is: awesome 
187: My pet: they are so lovely and well, thank you. but if you could get me some hamster as well as their food bedding and stuffs, that will be best.
186: My best friend: saya best friend? taktau la, Close friend dont stays with you for a long period of time
185: My favorite shampoo is: those with nice smell will do.
184: Xbox or ps3: No! get me ipad and iphone 4s.
183: Piggy banks are: not for me. just put those money in my wallet, thank you.
182: In my pockets: sorry, im wearing fbt, nth is in there right now.
181: On my calendar: i havent brought any.
180: Marriage is: marriage. after marriage, no divorce, if i have to, i wont marry again. 
179: Spongebob can: can what?
178: My mom: is one of the world best mum, even though with her short temper, she's the best.
177: The last three songs I bought were? sorry i dont brought them, i download them.
176: Last YouTube video watched: eh, kumar comedy video. LOL!
175: How many cousins do you have? So many!
174: Do you have any siblings? 2.
173: Are your parents divorced? NO!
172: Are you taller than your mom? eh yes, i supposed.
171: Do you play an instrument? yea, i used to. Guzheng, piano, and a short while of guitar. But i forget everything.
170: What did you do yesterday? i woke up, brush teeth, eat, bath, make up, take bus, sit on the bus, after tapping my ezlink, tap another time before i went down the bus, took another bus, tap again, find a seat, and tap out,. get a drink, walked to prime supermarket, get some sweets and magee mee, walk to work place, sat there, punch card, go up the second floor, wat, it's getting a bit too long here, i worked and i go home.

[ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: erm no! nnot anymore.
168: Luck: luck? i dont seem to have that much?
167: Fate: fate, i sure have them, i met people who brought down my luck.
166: Yourself: m? i dont believe myself, i cant even wake myself up for an exercise.
165: Aliens: no! i am one.
164: Heaven: i wish i believe in that.
163: Hell: There seems to be one. only hoping there isnt any of hell at all.
162: God: not really? i duno.
161: Horoscopes: no.
160: Soul mates: no.
159: Ghosts: duno.
158: Gay Marriage: im not a guy, so i duno how i am supposed to be one.
157: War: i believe in that! im gonna start a bitch war when i can.
156: Orbs: what's what.
155: Magic: no.

[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses : hugs
153: Drunk or High: high
152: Phone or Online: online
151: Red heads or Black haired: red
150: Blondes or Brunettes:blondes
149: Hot or cold: neither!
148: Summer or winter:winter
147: Autumn or Spring:i can differenciate between the both.
146: Chocolate or vanilla: both
145: Night or Day: duno
144: Oranges or Apples: NOne, durian ok
143: Curly or Straight hair: my normal hair.
142: McDonalds or Burger King: mac fries, burger king's burgers
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: BOTH!
140: Mac or PC: duno.
139: Flip flops or high heels: both?
138: Ugly and rich OR Sexy and poor:rich and sexy
137: Coke or Pepsi: pepsi
136: Hillary or Obama: my pet monkey
135: Burried or cremated: None, just leave me alone there.
134: Singing or Dancing: BOTH
133: Coach or Chanel: eh, duno
132: Where do you like to shop? in that particular shop where all my fav thing is.
131: Small town or Big city: hmm, not sure.
130: Wal-Mart or Target:sno
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: hyun bin!
128: Manicure or Pedicure: both
127: East Coast or West Coast: have never been to west coast so im aint sure.
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: birthday, i dont celebrate christmas.
125: Chocolate or Flowers: CHoc.
124: Disney or Six Flags:what's with the both of them?
123: Yankees or Red Sox: NONE

[ Here's What I Think About ]
122: War: ah, dont mention about this.
121: George Bush: i know nth about him
120: Gay Marriage: it's all right
119: The presidential election: i dont elect for anyone. im not in the right age yet.
118: Abortion: BAD but some things cant be done. you have to sacrifies sometimes.
117: MySpace: what about iT?
116: Reality TV: Those shows are getting even boring now.
115: Parents: some are good some are bad.
114: Back stabbers: They are bitches like her.
113: Ebay:?
112: Sex: it depends.
111: Work: i hate them but i still hve to work for my future.
110: My Neighbors: eh.. when they are having the new year, i get to have some nice food?
109: Gas Prices: ohnono, prices and fees goes up a great load.
108: Designer Clothes: whee, only when i get to wear those that i wont look so fat in,
107: College: i wish i can graduate with the best cert where i can work for a high pay job.
106: Sports: erm, bowling?
105: My family: what about them, they are fine, sometimes, and they are not.
104: My friends: some are great, some are faggots.

[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: erm, i didnt hug, sharmila hug me, cause she cant bear not to hug me. *sniggles
102: Last time you ate: just a while ago, i cant leave my food in these cold places.
101: Saw someone I haven't seen in awhile: erm, just now, but wani saw me, i didnt know its her.until she msg me.
100: Cried in front of someone: hmm, when did i last did it?
99: Went to a movie theater: oh just that day with zy.
98: Took a vacation: nah, there's no vacation for me currently.
97: Swam in a pool: hoho, it looks like it's been weeks.
96: Changed a diaper: oh, when i worked yst?
95: Got my nails done: just now in the afternoon.
94: Went to a wedding: hmm, i cant remember.
93: Broke a bone: nah, 
92: Got a peircing:eh, cant remember.
91: Broke the law: think i do, but i forget what
90: Texted:just

[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most? hmm, myself?
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my bed when i am still sleepy and tired.
87: The last movie I saw: we not naughty
86: The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: tml!!
85: The thing im not looking forward to: work.
84: People call me: crazy and funny
83: The most difficult thing to do is: to get up to exercise.
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: for nth.
81: My zodiac sign is: gemini
80: The first person i talked to today was: my mum
79: First time you had a crush:that was when im in pri 5?
78: The one person who i can't hide things from:erm nobody.

77: Last time someone said something you were thinking:cant rmb.
76: Right now I am talking to: no 1
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: work
74: I have/will get a job: i already have.
73: Tomorrow: is fun
72: Today: is alright
71: Next Summer: when is it?
70: Next Weekend: werk? NOOOOOOOOOOOOO
69: I have these pets: when i was young.
68: The worst sound in the world: im not sure.
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: me myself
66: People that make you happy: some of them only
65: Last time I cried: cant rmb
64: My friends are: alright
63: My computer is: sot
62: My School: is far
*61* where did it go? not funneh -.-
60: I lose all respect for people who: looks or did smth like that small little bitch.
59: The movie I cried at was: nonono
58: Your hair color is: bloack gold brown and a few strings of red.
57: TV shows you watch:NONE
56: Favorite web site: none yet.
55: Your dream vacation: hmm, a lot, but it's not goin to come in any sooner.
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: im aint sure.
53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium rawwwwwwwwwwww
52: My room is: is dirty, no one sweep it.
51: My favorite celebrity is: heh!! a lot of them.
50: Where would you like to be: somewhere where i could get peace, do whatever i want, play what i want with those people whom i love, and they wont shatter those peaceful moments.
49: Do you want children: yea
48: Ever been in love: errr.
47: Who's your best friend:errr
46: More guy friends or girl friends:errrr guy
45: One thing that makes you feel great is?im lunatic enough
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: hmm, Jayraj
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no,
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die:no
41: Have you pre-named your children:????
40: Last person I got mad at: you, you are too naggy for me.
39: I would like to move to: to.,.. somewhere peaceful
38: I wish I was a professional: in bowling and in funny acts.

[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: any sour candies and ferreo rocher
36: Songs: too much
35: President: who?
34: State visited: none
33: Cellphone provider: none
32: Athlete: Choi Minho, LOL
31: Actor: Hyun bin!
30: Actress:erm.. i duno.
29: Singer: so many!!
28: Band: 2AM, and others!!
27: Clothing store: those clothings that i like?
26: Grocery store: none.
25: TV show: none.
24: Movie: too much to name them
23: Website: duno.
22: Animal: most animals.
21: Theme park: i love all theme parkss!!!!!!!
20: Holiday: i wish i could have one nice holiday
19: Sport to watch: no
18: Sport to play: bowling and cycling
17: Magazine:no
16: Book: i will want some, like abusive, interesting, schoolin
15: Day of the week:none
14: Beach: a clean beach i guess? hawaiiiii
13: Concert attended: none. oh yes, soka concert
12: Thing to cook: hmm, my fav food
11: Food: so much
10: Restaurant: all buffet seafood, and dim sum
9: Radio station: none
8: Yankee candle scent: none
7: Perfume: those that smell really nice, and wont stink like some cheap perfumes!
6: Flower: none
5: Colours: a lot
4: Talk show host: ehh, i dont recall those names.
3: Comedian: kumar, and eh, some others
2: Dog breed: i love most of them
1: Did you answer all these truthfully?: of course, you with your crazy qns.

Sorry, have been doing some stuffs and watching kumar's comedy. If you guys dont know who he/she is, go watch the youtube, you see one indian person. Yeah, that's the one. Well, it's shamimi's last day today, and it's gonna be ba boredom without her around. not because i find anyone in my work place boring or what, but it's just that, she's crazy, and so am i. So i will miss her and her craziness. LOL! and i expect that i will mis ping ping too. LOL! and of cos, shiok theng. haha. i finally took pic with xiao ping, after she took my whole bag of M&M and when she finally gave me back my rubber band. LOL! no good la she. haha, even asking i got give her meh. heh! Anyway, took some pictured that day as well as for jamie last day that time. We have our nomral routines of sharing ghost and funny stories that we knew. And the vincent joined us after that too. hehe. and he spoke 2 real ones. anyway, liling ask me if i will cry when it's my last day or not. haha, and im like, will i? hehe,. i do have smth to update here but i cant remember them again. anyway, i am looking forward to monday, it's start to sing my song!!! haha!! cheerios.

if i really have time, i would have done my things in the morning. Do i have to wait till i end my work and do them? And if i dont work, Do you think you people will have like it?  If only you will stop grumbling and sleep like how and whenever you want to, just carry on with it, and ignore what im doing. Im aint making any noises so you should not too. And you dont work, so you wont understand at all. Maybe you used to, but that's more than 15 years already. If you dont understand, it' best if you quit hollering like some lunatic, when nobody is bothering you.

Hihihihi, i knew i wanted to update my blog about something but i forgot what. Anyway, Satuday will be shamimi's last day already. SOBB!! i have no one to bother anymore. nobody tell me any more stories. LOL!! Well, today was a sleepy, boring and tired day, But, there were sotries to hear from ziying.  Shiok theng didnt come today either :( Sigh! Anyway, i brought some sour sweet and i gave one of them to Xiao Ping, at first, she just tear open the sweet, and even turned around when somebody talked. BUT! when she put it in her mouth, her face immediately changed. Her face gradually getting redder, and she keep pointing finger at me, while squinting her eyes. DAMN! shamimi would have laugh the loudest there. But seriously, her face was so funny that everybody laugh!! haha. ok la, im a bit bad here, But then, if you were there too, you would have laugh as crazily as i did. anyway, GOOD BYE!

I guess im the one who's hurting myself again and again. Putting all the blames on me myself, everything. And those times, i will wonder why, why am i feeling so down suddenly. Nobody did anything to me. Perhaps, it's me, myself, and i. my own thinking that announced me dead. And yes, when im feeling down and when i need anyone, i do have people around me, and yet, im not able to confine my secrets with anyone. Getting even annoyed at this truth, as well as myself, i threw my temper against anyone who came into my way. Of course, that hurts them. But it hurts me the most. Again, it might be because of musics or songs that i listen to. my thoughts always went wild with them, thinking about everything. It's totally sickening, having to complain that i keep thinking about this and that, as it's almost the same thing, just that they are different problems different people and different thing. And yes, of course, when there are heapless times when i felt like crying, either i cried too much, or no tears came flowing out. Think if im going to kbox, i hope i will be able to sing those feelings out? think im getting some wine now, sigh!

Hey there, i got into accounting. What should i say? i think im more interested in knowing whether im going to the same class as my friend, or not. Rather than studying? Well. i do have that feeling everytime before i start school, saying that i will go to school each day, to focus on my studies and getting good result. But each year, that target always fly away. LOL! see how alright. anyway, real school is really a funny and good show!!!

Right, here's a very short post before i bath and get ready to go work. There's nothing much to post today. Just that i woked up early today, but as usual, i'm too lazy to go for a run. well, as you expected, i guess?. Anyway, i hope today won't be like yesterday where there's 2 human beings quarrelling. And i was table were quite quiet for a period. And i hope that i can do those same thing as yesterday. I think im getting more and more lazy. Of course ah. haha. ok la, there's really nothing much to post. Just that i hope 14 feb will come as soon as possible. Nah, it's nothing much about the valentine's day. Just that i want to know which school and course i'm going to. So there!!!Bye.

If only those hollering and shoutings will stop. It's really getting into me, and i will be drag in in a while later. Sigh! Getting stuck over here really does me no good. I dont even know what to do to stop all this yelling. Hack! if only everything will stop here.Think im lucky that im working tml. Please give me peace when im at home. It's no use stopping anyone here when everyone's in this mood, no one will bother, instead, you wanted peace, and they give you crap. Stubborness, arrogance,mood swings, bad tempers, irritating and others, form this family. Happiness? yea, maybe about 4%? Good life? 0.35 % anger? 95.5 % Others? 0.15% i guess. argh!!! i really hope that 2012 will be the last year. If it is, please, tell everyone out there, So i can everything that i have worked hard for and spent everything.

Stop hitting on me like some crazy women! alright! if you are that pissed with others, you scold that person directly instead of getting others involved. Really! This family. Why?! For those things that doesnt invole me AT ALL, stop including me in them. If you think im like the others, i rather, just chase the 3 of us out. And! if things gets in your way, you solve it yourself instead of dragging us into the matter as well! Especially me! When i didnt do anything. I get on with my work, and you get on with yours, you try to involve me, you are trying to get me into war. I hate the fact that when you are angry, dissapointed, piss or anything. It's because of those temper of yours, that's one of the things, THAT RUINED THE WHOLE FAMILY. you get it? i wish you will get it. Seriously, YOU said that when people pray or smth, they will be like somewhat ok. AND that if you think positive, you will be positive. BUT you are not that way, and why is that so? So many hours spent on praying but yet, nth seems to get on well. i agree that every family has their own problems. But even if we dont have any, THERE'S always these stupid things that led to fights and quarrel. you wanted peace? But you create war yourself. Really, i dont feel like quarreling with anyone, im in a good mood today, well, frankly speaking. whenever im in a good mood, such little things totally spoil my mood! THANKS. this is one of the reason why, i dont believe in GOD.

Yo!! Right, shall update about some things here, other than those unhappy stuffs. anyway, i really wanted to go USS and that Fisherman market for a very long time! Even since last year :( But things just dont goes my ways. Sadly, The buffet will end on this sunday, 12 Feb 2012!! ARGH! im like damn pathetic right now. Both of these places, and i will want to go with Shiva first. WHY!!!! sigh! ok la, bye, im meeeting Zy for a movie later.Bye, have to get ready.

YEA>>>>>>>!!!! Now, what should i update? Guess i should update about yst? Hmm, i met the two crazy women, Zi Ying and Joanne at city hall mrt. We then went to the cinema to get our movie tickets after deciding for quite a period. Were supposed to watch underworld adventure, BUT, ALAS! Both zi ying and joanne are not at age yet, as the show is rated n18. So we watch Chronicle. It's not a bad show, except that i dont like that fact that the guy keeps looking at the camera altho0ugh it's supposed to be that way. It's kind of draggy. But i will rate the movie 7/10. Before watching the show, we went for bowling sessions. we play 4 games in total and guess what, hehe, i top those 4 games. YEAH!! hhaha, cause whenever i went bowling with ah ben they all, im either the last or second last. hehe, cause they keep striking @_@. hehe, we then went for dinner at sakae sushi. and they are all ala carte, like seriously.!!! @@^#$^#$^# so we end up only eating 16 plates of sushi with 2 hot green tea and 1 coke, and it cost $49.59 already. -.-We then rushed to get ziying shoes before heading to buy popcorn and the loos before finding our seats. Finally the show end, and when we got out of that door, the wind was damn cold! We then head over to the open area outside seoul garden and mfm. as i went there before. and it was quite cooling. we took heapless of pictures of ourselves, like some lunatic. we got  to macdonald eventually and had a meal that are shared between the three of us, before heading home at 10 plus. Thought of going for a run this morning, but i got really tired, and even when my normal alarm rang, i cant even wake up. But i managed to do so and ate my luknch without switching on my lappy and did smth before bathing. Talked to ziying about some things, which are really funny, some things that happened in my life. like in bk or smth else, which are quite hilarious, some of them. k bye.