Suddenly i feel damn sad again. looking at how happy i am in the past, well, not exactly happy, but at least i did have a few happy memories. but looking at how i am now, i felt pathetic.things weren't the same anymore. i knew that everything will change, but, it's not what i expected. i feel stranded on this island alone, like no one ever bothers. and thatim like not close to anyone anymore. even sisters. the thing is, i can't bring myself to say anything personal thing out anymore. some things that are kept secret will be even better. there's too many secrets of mine out everywhere already. well, i cant say it's secret, but there are just some things that are not supposed to be shared. because part of it brought back too many unhappy memories, part of it makes me even sadder, part of it makes me felt that im just in the attention of doing thats that are not really good, and it makes people gossip and act in front of me. and even sisters, basically, anyone, can just say anything out. there isnt any conclusion to this. alll i can do is to fake a smile, trying to act hyper, laughing like some mad woman, when im facing people whom .. Say! this isn't a good thing to share.