sad sad sad, what can i say? i went to sku today, well just as usual, only that we are talking about jieling. resulting me being late in meeting roliah. went to city square, and manhattan to find jamil. to get the things that kath needed for her school. but did not get it, LOL. jamil cook pasta and we shared. and then i saw how the people are working. there's only three FOH staff, one came from Plaza Sing, i worked with him, Hanafie, before. One trainee whom i think i noe him but im not so sure about that, and one new girl whom is christine's friend whom is injured and can only do bar. hanafie asked me why i left cs in the first place, and i told him because of smth n oh, and makcik do not wan me to continue saying, then he say he can guess it's because of who. and he said that there is no senior at cs, except for belle, and if ther's another senior, it's only him as he worked 2 mths plus but worked longer than the others, and he said that christine is no longer working there, someone said that too, and i said i noe, she now at TC but he said she kanna kicked out too. and then , well there were more news, such as more ppl turning two headed snake, although i knew it long ago. but it happen to someone -.- argh. and that, well, when they closed, you can see how they sweep mop and everything, and when t's time to left, most of the things are not done!!!!!!! like damn dissapointing you noe, like how everyone used to take care of the cleanliness, focusing on teamwork, achieving target, worked as one good team, giving good service, but now, it's left with nth, belle? a senior? so unlikely, she's a laughter. CMI that's what she is, not bothering to do all this and get frustrated when others dont do their job when she her ownself do not do it. she's better in being an ALM, - act like  manager. AND THAT. ARGH!! SO MANY THINGS!! like whate4ver we had did seems like we had not done anything at all. there seems to be no us in the past at that place before, yet, how familiar and how un familiar it seems to be. everything changed a lot, and i really really regret that i have quitted in the first place. and i really really wish that i could go back and changed everything to become good. but three people, makicik, mum and sherlyn asked me, got used meh, a losing battle, will listen meh? picking up leftover bones? etc. i agree, but yet, as stubborn, as naive i really with and hope that i could change back that place. it holds a place in my heart no matter how long i have left that place. seriously, im heartbroken when i saw things changed to this way. how i wish i could expressed how i feel, but i have too many complicating feelings right now, and it's getting even iritating.