i dont know why i kept thinking of the past, along with that belle. maybe because we saw each other cried a few times before? maybe because we're not like last time totally? maybe because we used to go out tgt, mayb because whenever we have things that we are worrying, we could share? maybe because there's trouble and she knew it and i could tell her how i feel? maybe because i even felt jealous once when i see her being so closed with her new friends until i knew them, even though i knew that she did not want to go to that course at all, and she told joey and kim that she went there because of me when she tells me she go there because of her god brother. if anyone could just tell me what to do, she's a person whom is full of lies and everything, although her lies are so convincing that even me myself, had listened for quite a few times and i believed those words.i do not know what to do, approaching her is alright, only that there is no truth in her, and she's like a false person only.i used to tel her, anyone say you, just come to me, tell me, i will help her. i remembered this, when we're in the mrt station, going up escalator. then this woman just walked so fast and bang her without any sorry, and belle is small in size and always wanting to fall off when someone pushed her or what. and she like saying "cb.. and stuffs, complainin" and that woman turned back to her withblack face and to me, and nod her head as if asking what's her prob. and i said to that woman "you pushed her" and she said she did not, and i told her she did. and she say that we are rude and she walked off? yeah, somewhat a good friend right? i dont know, it's like erm, 3 years of frenship, i admit, i have longer friendships than that, but now, i seldom share problems with anyone, and even if i did, it's nth too personal. because i came to know that even a good friend of yours could just say anything out. i really felt like asking her, why in the first place would she do all the stuffs, but like i said, she's not going to reply honestly.i dont know why i am even sadder and dissapointed than angry. somewhat, she still hold that small little place in my heart. i just cant figure out why.