went for LPDX lesson, and i actually did a survey weeks ago, and the survey was like those questions that we will answer and when the results came, it told us about our style. and i found that all is actually quite true, and some were those points which i want to make it in life, sometimes, i need such things to make me understand myself more and give myself more motivation, and those that i will be writing down later, and what the results were saying about me.

[i am identified as an "ASSESSOR". i am an outgoing person when im in a comfortable, social settings while i display an analytical and cautious nature until i felt comfortable. i am very at home with strangers, and i can evaluate relationship and adapt accordingly. i develop new relationships easily when desired, and usually controls the extent that antagonistic behavior occurs intentionally. i display a caring and friendly attitude and im still able to focus on accomplishing the tasks at hand. i tend to be perfectionistic in nature, and will become isolated if necessary to get the job done. i prefers to be in an environment that i can be expressive with thoughts and emotions, yet, also have controls over what is happening. my style is quite artistic because of the unique blend of individual expressionism and the ability to formulate a plan to create something tangible from this expression.  i am very quality oriented and will work hard to get a job done right. i want people to approve of the job well done when i have completed it as my social  recognition is high.]

yeah, this is just the first paragraph and its totally true. i am outgoing but only if i am able to socialise with the people, and when im not in a bad mood, and when i have a lot of things i can say. i have diffferent ways communicating with different people. i will always try to get a job done well, when i have the aim to and when i got motivated. i always wanted to express my thoughts and emotions as i always have difficulties in keeping them inside, as i will stress myself a lot.

[i may feel guilty then i spend too much time enjoying life because i will often think what i should be doing. and when im working, i will often wish that i am playing. it happens like this because i have different elements of personalities. one because i want to stay focus on tasks and another part to focus on relationships and people. and this often leads to mismanagement of time and it depends on how high my "i" score is. i can be hard on myself at times and tend to be critical on the tasks i could have accomplished when i could manage my time better. my enthusiasm and optimism have a large influence on others, and i have excellent interaction skills and can use knowledge of facts and ability to analyze to influence people.]

yeah, i often think if i were to enjoy life often like how other teenagers do, i will have ruined my future, and i did enjoy/waste my time before, and im actually regretting, yet i found it enjoyable and im quite happy that i have actually enjoy my life, for there were just so many things i have to worry about. i will like to focus on stuffs that people gives real guidance to me, and not just telling me what to do and im unsure of what i should be doing instead. and i often wants to meet up with friends, but, due to work, studies, and tiredness, and also , sometimes,relationship and moodswings, i choose not to go, as i dont think i have the "appetite" to go. i am always hard on myself, im always pressuring myself. and things that i could have done better but didnt do well, i always blame myself. as for interacting skills, i can talk, but it also depends on the people im talking to. because not everyone is the same, sometimes you just have to be careful when you are talking to one. sometimes you might be insulting people but you will never know it as others are accepting that that is the way you are, but.. not everyone has the same thinking as them. yeah, i love to have more knowledge, sometimes, it makes me be able to tell some others stuffs that they dont know of, it increases my interactive skills, however, there are times when i tend to not knowing what to reply them, and what i should talk to them. and my temper do influence people. not only temper, but some other stuffs as well. but mostly, its my temper that are influencing people. cause i have a bad temper, i knew that long ago, i can be like a "DA XIAO JIE" as in the sister in the house whom dont have to do anything and get what they want by throwing tempers.

[i loved to be well liked, and i always have a hard time in roles when im supposed to punish or discipline people, although i have an excellent grasp of rules and how to apply them. i personally prefer to be the good guy and look at the good side of people and in situations. i am hypersensitive when people see my work as i desire social approval for my hard work. i can be counted to do a good job and pay attention to detail while being aware of the needs of the people. when i utilizes my traits to my ability, i can be powerful leaders, managers, and communicators. i have the ability to combine intuitive, logical and analytical skills with strong people skills in a very effective manner.]

i like to be like. and i hate being a bad guy but i am always being the bad guy, having to say things that i dont wish to, doing things that i dont wish to, often, when i cannot tolerate, or when i have to do my job. i can even shouted at one to do their job properly by hollering vulgarities at them although i always wanted to be a good guy, and yet, when there are so many things that i really dont wish to do, or i can say to the people is, im sorry, im just doing my job, either that or i will say, someone asked me to do that to you people, please dont blame me. its not that i want to say that person out, but thing is, i really dont wish to be that bad. whenever i did things that looks really good to me, often, i will like to be praised, and i really put my effort in, because im always being told off by my mum for doing jobs properly. i can do a good work, but sometimes i just need some motivations and encouragement, if i dont get those and i really dont know what i am supposed to do, i will be at a total loss, and i will get frustrated and stressed up easily. i can be a good leader, i can communicate well provided i have things to communicate with you guys.

[i prefer to work through problems by analyzing things that worked in the past. i am one that is able to lead, if necessary, but i will often waits for others if they will volunteer to be one. i will follow them if they display adequate ability and when i have confidence in them. i am optimistic.i love to explore new places/things and to have a wide variety of experiences. i do charm others. i am a very encouraging person, and others often find me inspirational and lively.]

i will often think of the things that had worked out in the past. i can lead, but i always and always waited for others to lead, even wanting others to lead, as i trusted them, and i knew that they can do it, sometimes, its because i want them to learn how to be able to lead. if anyone would volunteers, i will always give chances, everyone do deserve chances, dont they, even if its for the person whom i dont like, i will still let them do, but if they really did something good, i will either not saying anything, or praise them.  i love to explore new things, trying out everything, wanting to experience being another type of person, be it good or bad. i am indeed encouraging, but not to myself, but others. i always enocurage others, but my advice are often not used for myself. i dont know why.. yet. maybe its because i do not have that courage? maybe because i just want to give up. people do call me lively, im always hyper to them, be it i act hyper or not. i wanted others to laugh/cheer up, i will often try to do things to make them laugh, but sometimes, i will act like nothing happen, ok, not really acting like nothing happen, but i prefer to keep quiet, sometimes, one will want an accompanion, but they wanted to be alone, because they want someone to be there for them, and im one of them, too.

[i take a flexible approach in dealings with others and is willing to persue different avenues to maintain good relationships. while being patient and not usually rushing, i am not afraid to seek new solutions if previous methods do not fit the current situation. im neat and orderly,  people see me as a pratical. i need adequate information to make decisions, and will always consider the pros and cons. i may be sensitive to critism and will tend to internalize emotions. i like to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects and will follow a logical process to gain successful results.]

yupp, i always try to make different approaches to people whom i think they are worth it, to help them, to be a good friend to them, because there will always be times when they will need you. im not neat and orderly actually. i tends to rush things, as i always wanted things to be done fast and good, but certainly not neat and stuff, although i wanted to be one, but that is just one of my wish. people see me as a potential actually, because im always hearing that im am good in this/that, but i will make mistakes too, and when i made one, i will feel reproachful towards myself.  i wanted to do things well, so i will want to know what the advantages and disadvantages are. i am totally sensitive to critism, and i hate myself for being sensitive to such things. i will always critise back no matter what, and even if i do so, i will be emotionally hurt too. kind of  silly right? also, i will clarify expectations, i learned this when im working, i do not really expect much, but at least do a good job, but when some dont, i will feel angry and fed up, even its just a working matter, my expectations were not that high, but just say, doing some of the basic things, and not doing it properly, i will be mad. also, most of the times, its because i wanted to have a good result. having good results not to be showed off, but to think i can be better in guiding, and learning as well.

well, this is what the survey results were, and most of them were true.